haix

see la im back to dis horrible mood today.again.
haix
jus read lester's blog..so chim..buden made alort of sense.
its jus wad im tinking la...hmmhx.

Everytime when you have decided that everything you want to forget is forgotten, they seem to come back and haunt you again.
The memories you want most to be rid off never seem to really go away, they vanish completely for a while, then they come right back for you, stabbing you where it hurts the most.

everyone of us has memories we want to keep, and want to be freed of.
some memories are the things that really hurt the most. are memories there to remind us of how we used to love someone?
To remind us how foolish we once were?
Or are they simply here to torture us?
and it's always so easy to remember but not to forget.

Have you ever thought what would have happened instead if you did do what you truly thought was right?
Have you ever regretted?
some times. u look back and realised you're the only one holding on.
u need to let go. but how?
"I love you"
are three words u should never say out if u dunt mean it.
but sometimes ppl realli dun understand.
i definitely wun say it unless i mean it.

yeah..but some how things never turn out right
maybe u felt dat ur feelings wr returned.
but in the end. everything had to come to an end.
and u realised dat u wr wrong all the while.
those 3 words wr never put to action.
it was jus a sort of decoration in ur life
make it seem so beautiful n worthwhile to live on.

but someday the decorations are taken down.
and u feel so stupid to actually hav believed.
and thrs nth u can do to stop the pain le.

somehow u jus dunt belong n no one understands u
[you will never ever understand how i feel]


___//i sho ul d ne ver hav e bel ieved in h appy e ndin g s____
___happ y end ings onl ii be l o ng to fai ry tal e s___//